Chagrin

“One’s sorrow will never be understood by anyone but themselves.”


Amor said this:

a little old…

But I’m still right here

If there were no rewards to reap
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I’ve chosen here
I certainly would’ve walked away by now

And I still may

Have you ever loved someone so much that you’re willing to do anything for them? Have you ever had someone love you so much that they’re willing to do anything for you? I have experienced both, and it’s beautiful and heart wrenching at the same time. When you love someone so much, you would never want to let go even though things are hard and hurting because this person has become your everything. You survive because of love, you survive because of all the good memories, you cling onto the notion that true love still awaits.

Sometimes dissonance is inevitable. Dissonance can pull people apart. It’s capable of pulling two lovers apart when communication cripples. However, I always believed that as long as love still exists, nothing is impossible for lovers to get through together.

Daniel, I wanted you to know that the bottom line is that I love you. Do not take it lightly. I may say my i love yous a lot, but it does not lessen the true meaning of each and every i love yous I’ve said to you. My demons are out to get me and it is ugly. If there’s one thing I can promise you, it would be me never giving up on our relationship. We’ve built something so beautiful, so bright, so powerful, and I do not want it to end.

I hope you understand that I am undergoing a big change and I just want to hear those reassuring words that you can still love me at my worst. I know, I am a dreamer. Sometimes I almost think that there are really devils out there to get us, to sway our relationship, to rock it back and forth.

Daniel, I’m still the old person you loved. I’ve never changed. If ever you wondered how I feel for you, it was always this:

“Please Forgive Me” – Bryan Adams

Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss, it’s getting better, baby
No one can better this…
Still holding on, you’re still the one.
First time our eyes met, same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger, wanna love you longer
You still turn the fire on…

So if you’re feeling lonely—don’t
You’re the only one I ever want.
I only wanna make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should…

Please forgive me
I know not what I do.
Please forgive me
I can’t stop loving you
Don’t deny me.
This pain I’m going through
Please forgive me if I need you like I do.
Please believe me.
Every word I say is true...
Please forgive me
I can’t stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together.
Feels like the first touch, still getting closer, baby
Can’t get close enough.
Still holding on, you’re still number one.
I remember the smell of your skin,
I remember everything,
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights, you know I still do.

So if you’re feeling lonely—don’t
You’re the only one I ever want.
I only wanna make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should…

Please forgive me
I know not what I do.
Please forgive me
I can’t stop loving you
Don’t deny me
This pain I’m going through.
Please forgive me if I need you like I do
Oh, believe me.
Every word I say is true.
Please forgive me
I can’t stop loving you.

One thing I’m sure of is the way we make love.
And one thing I depend on is for us to stay strong.
With every word and every breath I’m praying
That’s why I’m saying…

Please forgive me
I know not what I do.
Please forgive me
I can’t stop loving you.
Don’t deny me.
This pain I’m going through.
Please forgive me if I need you like I do.
Babe, believe me.
Every word I say is true.
Please forgive me if I can’t stop loving you.
Never leave me
I don’t know what I’d do.
Please forgive me
I can’t stop loving you,
Can’t stop loving you.

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