Without trust there’s no us
Didn’t sleep great and now all I have is still everything but with a grumpy attitude
I couldn’t sleep last night because I cried balls remembering how much shit i’ve went through in the past only to be who i am today. And then there’s this human who came along to my life who turned everything upside down
He understands the demons and he knows how to tame them, & with all the fucked up beliefs i have absorbed, facing a soul like his made my heart shatter
how are you so kind” – i look at him everytime laying in his arms, tracing the hair on his chest
if i can die, it’s this, a part of myself who was conditioned to believe i was unworthy of a lot of things . i wanted to kill all these people in my head who damaged me but they’ve been fucked up too in their childhoods, past relationships
we have tons of hurt.
let us be gentle, , ,
It’s 2018, consciousness has arrived here today, a little unwilling to look at 2017 because its feeling like it has let go of too much at one go – take it easy | don’t take it too seriously
anime you keep me sane, my consciousness stays sober and loving when you’re in the picture
i choose you, always
love, always. consciousness, always.
One day, there’s going to be that one song, and that one moment, that opens your heart and make you see everything that was always there, the hidden love, hidden in all places, hidden in darkness, waiting to dash out.
And there’s going to be that one person who brings home all these emotions to you.
They’ll make you a better person without you even realizing, your ego will writhe in pain because it doesn’t want to die and reform – but release and surrender, you will be fine.
You’ll come out a butterfly
A little bit too bright, some of these days I’m just going go overboard if I do not contain myself. We are all some sort of crazy spirals in the head you know, coming back to look at different things but jazz… cool jazz in particular- always helps give you a certain perspective on things which are a little bit difficult to digest for the reptilian brain like this.
Your brain thinks you want a bunch of shit and everything else, but your body says noooooooooo and contains shit tons of fear from programming, however with jazz,, you find that balance. Libra is always very very very obsessed with balance and harmony.
They say what you see in others is always often your own mirrors being brought up to the surface, which is true. Sometimes we all do our own shit going around with our own mundane activities thinking that to each it’s own and the amount of “right” shit we think we are doing – I wish the Gods above us are just really laughing their asses off at how childish we are.
And while I am typing all of this, no it doesn’t apply to everybody because this is my perception. This is why you need the third eye to stop being so calcified. I know mine is.
Exquisite, magnifique, que sera sera
Hal means matters in Malay.
Durshka latu menzavu