Just Do It

The Goddess of victory – Nikeā™„

How Nike Came to Be
The Goddess of Victory – Nike

And there was war, Aries, but the wrath of Nike was different from Aries’, a combination of both Athena and Aries I’d like to believe.

She’s the goddess associated with Capricorn, my midHeaven. As for now, it feels really odd to try so hard to write with flair. Bruce Wayne has been out of touch. It’s time to practice again, to get these lazy fingers moving, and let purpose flow at the tip of my fingers to fulfill my destiny.

Don’t give away too much, work in silence, just do it.

It’s been good to have you back, Batman.

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Moving On

It’s official, the beginning of all endings.

“Move on with your life,” dad said before he and mom left. I stood in the hallway trying hard not to let the tears fall, because I finally understand what love is, what spiritual practice is, which is to give openly despite differences. Acceptance. My inner child has healed in the last few days.

And the other man, S. I was watching him sleep this morning and I don’t want to ever lose him because of my projections. Connect first, always connect first. Never put your agenda forward before connecting.

Disowning Pisces-Gemini-2nd house and diving head straight into 7th-Saggitarrius, disowning my like for airy piano with subtle emotional influences, disowning things that make me, ME, has been the worst betrayal. I never really like betraying other people, but I betrayed myself in a destructive way that only can be shown to light with another person’s compassion…

Family. Love. Kindness. Mental health. Persistence. Creativity. Movement.

Anxiety

Performance anxiety is real. It kicks you hard in the gut and makes you think that you might be screwing this one and only chance up – but that’s actually not true, your gut feeling, sometimes it’s not really that accurate because you don’t need to let your past experiences taint your perceptions on things – things can always be different.

So here I am, talking about anxiety like I have the accreditation to do so, but I know how it feels. I never thought I was an anxious person until I moved abroad. It’s so hard somedays trying to step out of your comfort zone – all that used to be on the internet and on the TV last time is now your reality, and you’re actually given a chance to go out there and live the life you want.

BBuutt then…

Ok stop there, breathe.

Fast pace? Too fast? Breathe, seriously meg, breathe

Omega 3

I know, there’s something always about health that we’re all ravin’ about and today I’m going to rave about Omega 3. I’ve been really foggy headed for the past few weeks after running out of Omega 3s and mind you, I just take one capsule a day because some days I feel it’s too much?

Until yesterday, it hit me that my brain fog has been because of a lack of nutrients – in which when you’re a college student who’s trying to save bills for yourself and to lighten your financial load, yeah you do that. So I popped by at Chemist Warehouse to get a big tube/bottle/(container) of it, pop the pills as how I would usually do – but this time I upped my game – actually following the given prescription, 1 every meal every day.

So far I have 3 popped, and honestly I really feel the effects kicking in. Man, why does it always have to be at the last, final leg then only I learn things about myself? Pisces, seriously though can’t you just channel your Aries? (Which is what I’m doing at the moment with Bonobo – yeah he’s Aries alright)

Needa to get my life around together boy. Sardines I’m coming for you, (I used to love them big time as a child, and I stopped getting them because I couldn’t get a good deal at bloody coles all the time).

Well final leg on Saturday, and 2 Saturdays after this, boyfriend will be going away for a conference while I look for a job to fulfill my PR project. C’mon now. Ending my 1st cycle. I know my 2nd cycle – work life will end, 3rd cycle – settle down and get married and kids.

Ha, I sound like i’m so sure of my life, but we will see how well can I keep my ground. Hey S, love you, hope you’re good, My sun and stars.

let go & take action

Clickbaits, different energies, different seasons – sometimes you just gotta stop listening to what other people are saying – stop making people make you believe that you should think a certain way, enough with the self improvement talks

Take action bbys

Heart of Gold

Taking advantage of people’s hearts of gold, and the ones who truly care and want it and need it most actually don’t get it, but get pushed out into the cold to survive by themselves, having a sense of bitterness in oneself in the long run or hope – only to be dashed by scammers alike.

What has our world come to? Liars, deceptive manipulators.

Where are the genuine people? They have to be out there somehow.

Never trust the internet (most of the time).

Uphill Battle

Whether it matters or not, some dreams wake you up from the rosy lens you’ve been using this entire time, stuck in a never endless time loop where you can’t seem to get out from it. Truth is, you can, but it’s going to be an uphill battle.

Battles, choose them wisely, and adjust yourself with time. I am writing this to myself, not to anyone, because I know more than anyone else my limits and my own darkness which I let occupy me for longer than it should, and it shouldn’t anymore.

Just when you start the battle, there will be a lot of obstacles, but there are people who love you as well. Win fair, play fair, be consistent, be humble, persistence is key.