Cool Jazz

A little bit too bright, some of these days I’m just going go overboard if I do not contain myself. We are all some sort of crazy spirals in the head you know, coming back to look at different things but jazz… cool jazz in particular- always helps give you a certain perspective on things which are a little bit difficult to digest for the reptilian brain like this.

Your brain thinks you want a bunch of shit and everything else, but your body says noooooooooo and contains shit tons of fear from programming, however with jazz,, you find that balance. Libra is always very very very obsessed with balance and harmony.

They say what you see in others is always often your own mirrors being brought up to the surface, which is true. Sometimes we all do our own shit going around with our own mundane activities thinking that to each it’s own and the amount of “right” shit we think we are doing – I wish the Gods above us are just really laughing their asses off at how childish we are.

And while I am typing all of this, no it doesn’t apply to everybody because this is my perception. This is why you need the third eye to stop being so calcified. I know mine is.

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Just Do It

The Goddess of victory – Nikeā™„

How Nike Came to Be
The Goddess of Victory – Nike

And there was war, Aries, but the wrath of Nike was different from Aries’, a combination of both Athena and Aries I’d like to believe.

She’s the goddess associated with Capricorn, my midHeaven. As for now, it feels really odd to try so hard to write with flair. Bruce Wayne has been out of touch. It’s time to practice again, to get these lazy fingers moving, and let purpose flow at the tip of my fingers to fulfill my destiny.

Don’t give away too much, work in silence, just do it.

It’s been good to have you back, Batman.

Moving On

It’s official, the beginning of all endings.

“Move on with your life,” dad said before he and mom left. I stood in the hallway trying hard not to let the tears fall, because I finally understand what love is, what spiritual practice is, which is to give openly despite differences. Acceptance. My inner child has healed in the last few days.

And the other man, S. I was watching him sleep this morning and I don’t want to ever lose him because of my projections. Connect first, always connect first. Never put your agenda forward before connecting.

Disowning Pisces-Gemini-2nd house and diving head straight into 7th-Saggitarrius, disowning my like for airy piano with subtle emotional influences, disowning things that make me, ME, has been the worst betrayal. I never really like betraying other people, but I betrayed myself in a destructive way that only can be shown to light with another person’s compassion…

Family. Love. Kindness. Mental health. Persistence. Creativity. Movement.

Visions of You

I can’t write in this state when my heart and soul is full of nostalgia. I dreamt you out of my 2 favourite animated movies.

Now you’re big as life, breathing, moving, living right before my eyes.

Everytime I see your face, I can’t believe my luck, but this is reality.

I am no longer sad, only carrying remnants of deep love that I have learned from the past.

Liebling, ich liebe dich.

Omega 3

I know, there’s something always about health that we’re all ravin’ about and today I’m going to rave about Omega 3. I’ve been really foggy headed for the past few weeks after running out of Omega 3s and mind you, I just take one capsule a day because some days I feel it’s too much?

Until yesterday, it hit me that my brain fog has been because of a lack of nutrients – in which when you’re a college student who’s trying to save bills for yourself and to lighten your financial load, yeah you do that. So I popped by at Chemist Warehouse to get a big tube/bottle/(container) of it, pop the pills as how I would usually do – but this time I upped my game – actually following the given prescription, 1 every meal every day.

So far I have 3 popped, and honestly I really feel the effects kicking in. Man, why does it always have to be at the last, final leg then only I learn things about myself? Pisces, seriously though can’t you just channel your Aries? (Which is what I’m doing at the moment with Bonobo – yeah he’s Aries alright)

Needa to get my life around together boy. Sardines I’m coming for you, (I used to love them big time as a child, and I stopped getting them because I couldn’t get a good deal at bloody coles all the time).

Well final leg on Saturday, and 2 Saturdays after this, boyfriend will be going away for a conference while I look for a job to fulfill my PR project. C’mon now. Ending my 1st cycle. I know my 2nd cycle – work life will end, 3rd cycle – settle down and get married and kids.

Ha, I sound like i’m so sure of my life, but we will see how well can I keep my ground. Hey S, love you, hope you’re good, My sun and stars.

Change of. Heart

True change comes from the heart.

My chakras light up in an intense way that’s not painful, but slightly triggering – and reminding me about the person that I wish to become in or without your presence

The mind hurts a little because it cannot understand, but it carries the emotion it feels, only ever with a slight tinge of pain, and now the ego is willing to be guided by the heart.

 

Gotta Go

I gotta go. these past memories no longer have a hold on me and i am frankly relieved, however i just need to say that it will be a fond place in my heart, a place where i have learnt a lot of lessons, emotions, following the heart has really helped me grow into a better person.

We all have learnt to love and lose somebody, a part of ourselves that will quite frankly never be the same from this point on.

So I gotta go, I gotta go.