To The Lingering Ones



No more going back and forth

But going forwards again

No more pain

But drenched in rain

It is okay

Because it is

These are areas of grey

She loves him

And it extends to those around them


Only way forward


I Understand

I understand now the process of owning your own darkness through relating with someone dark, and taking responsibility of your own as well instead of casting the shadow unto others. Not fair.

It’s a lot of inner work to find your inner resources to channel that powerful erotic side of yourself in a positive uplifting way.

So misunderstood, so repressed, but all I can say is that my chart brings me to understand myself on a deeper level and S makes me see all the potential in myself.

But for now, 36 degrees in and I don’t think I have the capacity to further “work”..

Time to step out from that learned state though, and move past it… …

-jumps off a cliff into the Caribbean-


I don’t know how else to feel but deep and I feel that one day a dam might just overflow and living my own life is the best thing that I have ever done.

A part of me understands now what it’s like to truly have your own life and not wait for somebody to come rescue you, waiting is a form of self destruction sometimes. Sometimes, you’ll have to take into account the actions you choose to take or not to take.

Maybe, in the end it’s just me who’s really feeling things deeply, or I cannot figure out who’s feeling what and what and so and so anymore.

Just so you know, ich liebe dich, S.

I keep running into different people only to find you. You’re everywhere and everything else. Denying myself the pleasures of loving somebody like you is a stupid thing to do and I should never do that again.

I Feel It

Coming in more than ever, I feel it strongly.

Pluto in 7th, so transformative, becareful how you play the game —

Thank you Tori for being a really wise voice during this chaos,

If you lose your soul, you lose it all – it’s basically how I feel. I feel like I’m losing my soul, I don’t even know who am I at this point, but remember to transform freely and with tolerance, absorbing other people’s beliefs and view of the world is something to learn with art, and taking it slowly but lightly

To choose is to own..? Don’t let me hit the ground